I Hate This Feelings

feel like i've betrayed my fren

feel like i've killed her

feel like i just tear her heart apart

feel like im a lier

feel like im a looser

feel like killing myself

feel sooo depressed

feel like im heartless

feel like im so emo

feel like calling sinithie

feel like having a relation back with her

feel like saying sorry to my tween

feel like crying infront of them

feel like kissing someone

feel like living in pre-hell

feel so pain when I cut myself

feel so releaf to see thee blood came off

feeling weird

feel so fake

feel so uncomfortable

feel like ppl are watching me

feel like running away

feel so shame with myself

feel like a fool

feel like acting

feel like a prisonor

feel like stop smoking

feel like taking 1000 types of pain killer

feel like drinking alcohol

feel like dying

feel soo broken

feel like f***ing ppl

feel like having ***

feeling real bad

feeling like im alone

feeling like i just lost my frens

feel so gay

feel like becoming a drama queen

feel like nobody trust me anymore

feeling like having a bf

feel like playing "shit"




i've felt enough!!

i had also represented myself as a fool for a very long time!!

i have to move on..

but i dont know where to start...

i have to pay back for my sins

but i dont know what have i done

i have to say sorry to my tween

but i dont know how

i've lost my shoulder cry

but i dont know when

i have to fake everytg from now on

but i dont know why...



scars, cigarrette, drugs

seriously are not helping me

who should i cry to

who should i tell my stories to

who should i trust

who can understand me

who can help me



no one can see my pain

no one can judge me truly

no one can read my sign

no one can shed my tears

no one have gone true my trajic life

no one understand....