14 September ( 21.21pm) my world is over

At 6.00pm,

Im supposed to be there,

Celebrating my day with her..

BUt my mom found annick's letter..

And she's mad at me..

She dont let me to go there..

She was asking me craps..

Im so moody and depressed..

I juz leave her hanging..

She called me several times,

I juz couldnt help to answer...

The third called, I answered...

S:"are u coming??"

N:"i...im afraid...i might not going..."

S:"u seriously cant?"

N:"ya...im sorry..so sorry.."

S:"......im here.....with ur presents in of my eyes...."

N:"im sorry..."

S:"that's okay.."

-then she hanged on...-

How I wish I can go...

So I seek for my bro's help..

He called my mom,

At last, she give me permission to go..

It's already 8.15pm

Im so scared she might be gone...

And so I went to the airport...

And then I find for her..it's 9.05pm

The flight had already left..

I took a glance at a restaurant nearby..

I saw a card, a box of cake..

A book, a piece of paper with a pen on it..

I believe they are from her..

I look aside,

And I saw the book again..

I wonder what's in it..

And I open and have a look..

It was a diary...

The first page was the picture of me and my bro..

Written below it, "My Family"

I juz stared at the photo..

Im blank..totally blank...

She really appreciate our relationship...

as family...

Tears when down my face...

Together with the memories...

I saw something beside the book..

In a plastic box...a shirt...a couple shirt...

pink colour t-shirt...

but she didnt take the boy neither the girl's shirt..

both are with me..

I turned around..

My grandma was behind me..

She juz look at me and said,

"call her..."

How am I supposed to call her?

She might be boarding the flight now...!

but I juz follow what she said..

I called her...

It straight away went to voicemail...

Then I was standing infront of the departure enterance...

I called her again...stupid!

Again...to the voicemail...

Thanx to my mom.!!!

F****** Idiot!!!

My grandma came and calm me down..

"Nina...I've felt it too....sabar je..."

Sabar??? Easy to say!!

ITs juz super bloody hard to do!!

And I looked at the watch..

Its 21.21pm

Time that makes my world's over

Time that makes me heartless..

time that change the real me..

time when i was reborn..

Time when the past Amalina was gone...